Thankful

Thanksgiving is next week and I have been thinking about all of the blessings God has given me. -not the usual gifts like family, friends, home. I am thankful for the challenges He gives to me. I know the Lord only gives us what we can handle and I have learned that He has faith in me. He could make my life a walk in the park but He doesn't. He knows that the only way for me to experience all that's available in this life is to give me obstacles to overcome. Exercising makes us stronger. Struggles, challenges-addictions, handicaps whatever you chose to call them- they are all exercises from God. They are the opportunities to make us better, stronger. I am thankful that God loves me enough to help me grow. ( I am also thankful for my wonderful family and friends) =-)

I'm holding on!!!!!!!!

Somedays the road is bumpier than others, but I know the Lord is always by my side. I've become better at having patience for the situation I'm in and knowing there is a purpose behind it. I try to learn from them instead of wishing them away. (I still wish sometimes) I know this is a difficult road I am on now, but it's not as rough as a lot of people travel. I am growing and becoming stronger. I know that is what God wants for me. I enjoy the physical growth this path He's leading me down. I have never felt so strong. I've had 4 good workouts the last 4 days. I'm hurt'in but I'm not complaining.
I want to live life with no more regrets. I have so many regrets. I have made mistake after mistake. sometimes it's the same mistake over and over again. I finally feel like maybe I have learned some lessons and I am on the right road for a change. I am eager to see what the next year brings. I may be single again, I may be very happily married. I know where ever I am, I will be happy. I trust in God that He will lead me where He wants me to go. He will love me and never leave me.
I know I frustrate those around me who think I should do this or do that. I value their feelings. I know they love me and want me to be happy. But I know that I have to do what I feel is right. I have to make my choices so that I no longer live with regrets. So to all those out there - thanks for your unending support and love. I am ok.